I've tried. I've tried really really hard to write seriously and make it seem like I'm not exactly crazy or anything because it's apocalyptic novel and the whole mood has to be dark. I've even written 10k words somewhat normally. But then I came to that one particular part where I had no idea where to go next, so I started writing parts that come in future and I ended up going back to my batshit-crazy kind of writing with a lot more cursing and stuff and suddenly I had a lot more fun and I was writing faster than before and I'm really really sorry to however's going to read that thing, because I've tried but I can't write in a tone that's not me so yeah. Batshit crazy it is.